"We have a secret in our culture, and it's not that birth is painful. It's that women are strong."
Although I planned for a natural birth, I ended up with a c-section. I read the books, took the classes, and was mentally ready. The situation I ended up with was exactly what I did not want, and because our American hospitals do not respect the miracle of birth, I ended up having Olivia removed from my body. I was so doped up on pain meds I did not feel a thing while she came into the world. But, the pain afterward was the worst I have ever felt. Not only did it make breastfeeding a nightmare, it also made me dependent on Todd and my mother to even go to the bathroom. Honestly, I did not change Olivia's diaper by myself until she was about five days old. It was crippling. Before having a cesarean myself, I always disliked the idea of them. Birthing in such a sterile and cold setting is not what childbirth is about for me. Now that I have had a c-section, I am even more against unnecessary medical intervention. The shock and disgust that come over me when I hear women rave about them is hard to disguise. If I ever have another child, I will be having a home birth because this is the only way I will successfully have a vaginal birth after cesarean. Hospitals across the country are banning VBAC even for young and healthy women like myself. I am so thankful for my beautiful baby girl and the scar I have is a reminder of what my body can do but that still does not mean I do not feel I was robbed of bringing my child into the world how nature intended.
Here are some photos from the pea's birth day:
This is the day that we got to the hospital for an induction, she was born almost 36 hours later.
Very swollen from a constant IV drip
A healthy and content baby with daddy (I was kept away from her until I "recovered" enough to feel my legs and go to my room)
Finally together again!